Tuesday, June 29, 2010

A man is a facade ...

I put on a clean shirt, clean pants and a tie every day. I scrape off the beard that insists on trying to grow anew each morning. I behave in a serious, respectable, responsible manner. I project dignity, gravitas and maturity -- or at least make an effort.

It's all a sham.

I am just a little boy trapped in this overgrown man-shell, who would happily spend the day examining ant hills and splashing in puddles if I could.

And I am just a teenager still riding the raging stallion of passions that will dog me,probably, until the day I die. I cherish the gold band upon my left hand and my beautiful Beloved is and always will be my Goddess, She and no other. But I would be a liar if I were to say that there is no other beauty in the world and even if there were, the presence of such beauty would have no effect upon me.

A visitor came to my office today -- like my Sweetie, a trim, brunnette Lady with a delightful smile. She wanted to talk about a computer system that we have installed. I kept a professional air, forced myself to look away when She leaned over the desk, refrained from drooling -- in short, struggled mightily in a manner that I certainly would not have, in the presence of some aging, balding man.

Why is it so hard in such a situation to even make eye contact?

Ah, I am pathetic. All men are pathetic. Marionettes dangling from invisible strings. Monkeys nicely dressed up to mingle with the crowd.

Do You Women just laugh at us amongst Yourselves?


Eastcoastdweller said...

My Beloved still teases me about a time when I had to drop in on a certain Female contact who was quite friendly, quite complementary, quite flirty. I was a stammering mess ... don't know how I made it through that interview.

I told My Beloved about it when I got home, because I keep no secrets from Her. She just laughed.

Misfit in Paradise said...

As to the laughing, the answer is, uhm, mostly yes. But we don't do it cruelly. In actuality you delight us. And I am betting your Beloved will back me up on this.

...amarpreet said...

No, not at you...we're flattered, truly.

Janice Thomson said...

A smile perhaps but never a laugh for in actual fact we are indeed delighted at the attention...